Pregnant - 3rd Time Around.

It's 12:30 am and I should be asleep, like everyone else in my house is. But, I cant. And so here I sit. Blogging. Maybe I shouldn't since I am an overly emotional pregnant person.

One week ago (last Sunday) I spent the day nauseated and sick and throwing up, I only made it to about 20 mins of church before I headed home. And sadly for me, I didnt even make it home before I threw up (alot) the next few days weren't much better, I was tired and just felt like junk. And on Thursday morning after repeatedly throwing up in the shower, I needed to explore farther. Which led me to retake a pregnancy test which just a few weeks ago said, "not pregnant" It was positive, yay!!

I feel overwhelmingly grateful for the chance to have another baby. Really. I do. This #3 has taken us a lot longer than the other 2 did, so I almost felt like it was too good to be true when stick said "pregnant" this time. I have been waiting for this. But yet... nothing but tears. I cannot stop crying, even now as I type, my eyes are so swollen I can hardly see what I am typing. This part is the hard part for me. And I forgot just how hard it is. I get so sick when I am pregnant, all day, every day for weeks on end. And it is so hard. I have only in fact left the house 1 time since I found out I was pregnant, to attend a baby shower I was throwing and have been working on for a long time. (which by the way was probably the best thing I could of done, taken a break from my hibernation) Other than that, I have been in the house. In my sweats, feeling awful. I haven't kept anything down and no matter how much I sleep, I cannot get enough energy to even want to blow-dry my hair.

I know that I am so so so happy to have this baby, and to add to our family. And I love new babies. Love them. So don't think by reading this post that I am not happy about this. I really am, its an answer to prayers. This baby is already loved. I just have realized this time is going to be the same as the rough pregnancies before. When I was pregnant with Adyson, I had no one else to care for, I could drowned in my misery. And I did. Then when I got pregnant with Max, I had Ady to care for but she was only just turning 1. So, we could be home and sick and it was ok. No dance, no preschool, no reason to have to be anywhere. I remember she would follow me into the bathroom to throw up and pretend she was throwing up to. Then I would lay her on my chest and turn on Baby Einsteins and just be home. All day... all week until I felt better. So, I am just scared this time, that I have more responsibilities, and feeling guilty at the prospect of all the fun things my kids are going to miss doing with me cuz I dont feel well enough to do anything right now. Literally, I didn't even come out of my room today until almost evening except for once to get a drink.

I am not really sure why I am writing this. Except that this blog is a sort of journal for our family. And I actually now feel a little guilty for complaining at all. I know there are a lot of people who have a very hard time getting pregnant, and some who cannot at all. And I don't want anyone like that to think that I am not grateful that I can get pregnant and I do have healthy babies. I know that is such an amazing blessing. I just wanted to be honest about how I felt right now. A little scared about how I am going to handle the pregnancy this time around and incredibly emotional for no good reason. I really could fill a well with the amount of sobbing I have done on my bathroom floor this weekend.

But at least I'm 8 weeks down... 32 to go. (hopefully only 30, if all goes to plan).... great now I'm crying again, that's forever.

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Halloween Happenings.

{Cornbellys October 2009}

October is usually on of our favorite and busiest months. There is something about this time of year. And here in Utah if you have kids are a million things you can do during the Halloween month. Last year, as I previously stated, we overkilled. So, this year we just got done what we could and had a great time.

Here are some of the things I have not already documented.

Our Couples Halloween Dinner Party.

Like last year, we invited over a couple of couples to do a costumes required fondue dinner. These are the 2 cute couples we joined us

The Shergills and the Brufords. Eric and I also dressed up, I was batgirl and he was my sidekick Robin. Why no pics??? Well, cuz when you spend the whole day cleaning, setting up and child caring and leave you self 5 seconds to get ready, the pics are a little rough looking. So, I spared you. And us.

Like last year, we did stations of fondue, started in the kitchen for the appetizer cheese course then moved to the dining room for the main course then the fondue fountain for dessert was set up on the island. It was all so yummy!

Here is a picture of Ady's dance class all dressed up in their Halloween costumes for this weeks class. They are all so cute. Ady really wanted to wear her costume that we took to Disneyland instead of her witch costume she picked out for Halloween because she loves the huge tutu.

Then on Friday, Eric, Max and I attended Ady's school Hallowenn program. She was darling and sang and danced so well.

We stayed after for more games and carmel apples with her class.

Then we headed straight over for trick or treating at Eric's office. The kids got so many treats, I don't think they even need to go trick or treating tonight (of course we will) but they don't NEED anymore candy.

I am sure the kids are going to be sad, all the Halloween stuff is about to end. Its been so much fun.

the only thing we forgot to document and I wish I would have were all the little hallowen favors and treats the kids and I made. I think the only one I got a pic of was the ones from the Fondue Night, but the kids and I stuffed and tied cute backs with Halloween stickers for Eric to hand out to the kids at the office. we also made several different sweets and treats for friends and trick or treaters. All turned out really cute.

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